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Itthon levés

2010-07-11T17:44:00.003+02:00

A balatoni móka sikeresen megtörtént múlt héten.
Ma 96 kilométert sofőrködtem, 40%ban járhatatlan és nem autóknak kitalált terepen (cserhááát) :D Megpróbáltam összefoglalni tömören a világnézetemet az anyósülésen szűkölködő egyénnek miután bejelentette, hogy Isten BIZTOS, hogy létezett. Erre hátulról egy kiscsaj, akivel akkor találkoztam először életemben, megkérdezte, hogy én a földrajzzal foglalkozom-e, mert neki az jött le, hogy kenem vágom a témát. Felvilágosítottam, hogy közgazdász hallgató vagyok, és amit mondok azt inkább csak úgy filozófiailag feltételezem. De gondolom az ősrobbanásra és a Naprendszerre vonatkozó mondataimra figyelt fel, ami meg azon túl hogy "nekem" fizika, csupán hobbiszinten ragadt a fejemben a gimiből. lényeg a vége 5ruppó
Ezen a héten csak pihengettem, dolgoztam egy keveset anyának, meg olvastam. 1 hónapon belül muszáj voltam 3 Vonnegut könyvet elolvasni, mivel más nemigen akadt a kezemben és nem is biztos, hogy lett volna hozzá kedvem. De tegnap már apuval megrohamoztuk a könyvtárat és beszereztem egy jó vaskos Umberto Ecco- t a változatosság kedvéért, amivel elleszek Efottig. (ő meg benyúlt egy Esterházyt, amit szintén illene elolvasnom)
Apropó: kedden Efott hétvégéig.
Azután jönnek kereszttesóim hozzánk, ami gyakorlatilag egy hetes sport és olvasó tábor, ugyanis mást sem csinálunk egész nap. Most ebben az évben el szeretném vinni őket teniszezni is (nameg főleg magamat, mivel még én sem próbáltam).
Utána "nagyon" régi ismerősökkel egy művészetek völgye.
Nem is maradt más közlendőm, csak az, hogy: Hajrá Spanyolország!

the wrong approach

2010-06-29T12:55:00.005+02:00

Sometimes I make mistakes like for example judge the thigs without fully know the circumstances. Actually it is always happening when it can.
I always have an opponion about everything, and I like to inform the others about it although I don't have the right to criticise.

When 3D and IMAX (i don't know what is the difference) became trendy in Hungary is the same time for me as the Avatar-mania.
I have never been to a 3D film when i sounded my belief that it will destroy all the values of cinema. I tought that people won't need exciting stories or deeper meanings in the action. I tought it's just a higher level of "die hard" style like car crashes, exploding bombs and shattering buildings.
A few weeks ago I decided to see Avatar. Previus expectations (according to my theory): spectacular, exciting and... and nothing else just a 2 and half hours admiration of "modern" technology.
It was spectacular
It was exciting... And I think It had all the values the films have which I like. Most of all I liked that part when it was about the characterization of mankind. Everywhere they (we) go, they make noise, throw trash, destruct the environment. Don't we have the ability to live in harmony with other living beings?

New..New...New.. New...

2010-06-25T15:11:00.004+02:00

After this busy year, I had succesfully taken all my exams! Sooo I made two of the three years in this University. One thing left: a crowded last year :)
As I overstepped that confusing first year, now I think there is nothing which could stop me in being graduated. And after that? I have no idea

And now coming the NNEEEWWW astonishing summer! I'm quit tired to think about those activities I'm waiting for month.
Next week: Lake Balaton, then Efott at Pécs with a little interruption in a distiller (or i don't know how to name it) in Szekszárd.
The reason why I'm afraid of these programmes, because I'm "clean" over one month. No parties, alcohol and cigarettes. Just training for the exams, and swimming almost every day. I feel good without those things, and I can't imagine how to make such a bacspace in my life, and on the other hand I would spend some weeks with my friend, relaxing and give a shit to everything...
sweetest agony :)

After these: one and a half month of learning to the exam in September. XD

Az élet mindig mást hoz (L)

2009-06-14T19:05:00.002+02:00

Azért ez annyira nem volt egyszerű, mint ahogyan az előző bejegyzésben megírtam.
Csütörtök este tartottam egy pihenő napot így a vizsgaidőszak után. Aztán pénteken sem mentem el Tatára, hanem lementem Salgótarjánban bulizni. És iszonyatosan jó döntés volt! Csomó régi ismerős és éjjeli séta a kálvárián. A szobortalapzaton időztünk egy kicsit meg még császkáltunk és reggel 5kor indultam vissza Stipivel Pestre. 9kor lefeküdtem aludni és aludtam délután 5ig.
akkor összefutottam Bálinttal és elhatároztuk hogy lemegyünk tatára az utolsó napra. Úgyhogy este 9körül már lennvoltam tatán. Partiztunk egy hatalmasat (Kaukázus és Quimby koncert volt). Reggel nyolckor meg indultunk vissza.
ebből következik hogy a mai napot is átaludtam (kicsit eltoltam magamat az időben). És most pihenek.
Holnap még bemegyek az egyetemre, aztán kedden Strandolás a bánki tónál.

Pénzügyi időutazás

2009-06-10T12:02:00.002+02:00

Nos a vizsgákon már úgy ahogy túl vagyok. Még egy szem Makroökonómia vár rám holnap.
Nyárra úgy gondoltam beindíton a blogot, hogy tudjam követni, hova is megyek és miket is csináltam már.
Bele is lesz kezdve a nyárba holnap. 1 óra 10 percem van megírni a Makró vizsgát és rohannom kell át a Délibe. Partivonattal indulunk le Tatára a Corvinus Évzáró Fesztiválra. Csak három napos úgyhogy hétvégén vissza is térek.

Érdekes

2009-03-23T11:56:00.004+01:00

Ez elég durva, hogy a "Gólyabál" volt az utolsó bejegyzésem. Úgy érzem ezen sürgősen változtatni kell :D Amilyen a gólyabál volt, olyan volt az előző félév!
De MOSSST! süt a nap (hát most nem igazán) és már várom, hogy nyár alkalmából újra molyokkal, repülő szárnyas bigyulákkal nameg büdös bogarakkal legyen tele az ablak, a szoba és a függöny.
nyárra jó sok tervem van: fesztiválok, hetekig tartó semmittevések....
De addig is szorgalmasan járok az egyetemre (mint most :)), tanulok minden szabadidőmben (esélytelen...:D)

Helyzetjelentés

2008-11-14T20:27:00.003+01:00

van egy koli ahol lakom, és az egészet imádom! az egyetemet ahová járok szeretem! van állásom ami szórakoztató és nagyon megéri. na meg az őszi fázisomat is jól viszem...

és...

Holnap Gólyabál!

megfőzöm a ruhám

2008-10-29T13:18:00.002+01:00

Annyira oda-vissza (nézek) folynak az események.

Mikor tudom ezt én is megtenni?

Le jour perfect

2008-10-14T16:40:00.002+02:00

C'était hier.
Avec ma meilleur copaine nous avons visité l'université dans le matin. Et aprés (11 heures) nous avons circulé á l'ile de Margit. Nous avons fait beaucoup de la besogne. Par example bronzer (une action specialisée au octobre :), bavarder, étudier et écrire des poets. Nous avons passé 4 heures lá.
Aprés il y aura une séance trés intéressate par mon frére.
Et naturellement je ne peux pas omettre la fete dans la soire.
Excellente :)

ez lehozott tegnap

2008-09-27T14:18:00.001+02:00

teltek múltak a napok

2008-09-26T11:52:00.002+02:00

Nagyon sok minden történt az elmúlt 15 vagy akárhány napban.
Tegnap (ez még friss élmény) voltam Fradi meccsen. Vettem sálat is. Extrajóóóó volt!!!! attól függetlenül hogy kikaptunk. És a kapu mögött voltunk a B-középben. Szóval ment mellettünk a party meg a gyújtogatás. Nagyon élveztem.
Aztán este meg a Rádayban voltunk. Ez nem igazán volt jó, mert nem futottunk össze kellő számú ismerőssel. De aztán a hazafelé út igen kalandos volt. Majdnem lehányt egy csaj a buszon. Mármint be is hányt de szerencsére nem fröccsent rám :) Hát igen. Ilyen a Tarka kollégium felé közlekedő éjszakai járat :)
És este láttam valakit a lábakkal felfelé alszik ellentmondva mindenféle gravitácónak.
Az iskola igen kellemes. Izgalmas, érdekes és kellőképpen nehéz.
Most épp József Attila Gyönyörűt láttam című versében kellett felfedeznem a Pareto-hatékonyságot.
Meg a nagyfeladatom az az, hogy fel kell építenem egy komplett napelem-gyártó céget.
Kellemes lesz az is. Bár ez elég nehéznek tűnik, de most annak örülök a legjobban hogy szívesen foglalkozok a témával és tényleg: nagy jó kihívás.
És azt is megtudtam hogy 1 órányi ping-pongozással 4000 kalóriát lehet elégetni :)

Wooow,

2008-09-10T21:55:00.005+02:00

I really really LOVE this kind of life I managed to live nowadays. We have all-night parties every day. I have a pretty good room-mate here in the dormitory and also lot of programmes and parties.
Today I planned to go to a comcert or a university party but it was necessary to stay here if want internet acces. And the others just begin their journey home.
I've just had a fantastic adventure. two guys rescued my life... ridiculous.
i have to go now. And drink something this evening :)
And I don't have to use torrent anymore, because the local-network contains everything i can imagine :P

Not enough for me

2008-09-06T22:59:00.002+02:00

Hm. I haven' t written for a couple of time because I was in Italy in the middle of August. It was exciting. Two interesting events have happened: I have learned the overhand stroke and I have broken my non-whisky period.
After this family journey I've spent 6 hours at home and then I went to the FreshmenCamp (or call it as you like). That means: 5 nights without any sleep or relaxing. I made some friends and listened this:

but it was not enough for me. I slept 4 hours then I went to a party yesterday night and got home for lunch. So it was good
I'll move to the dormitory tomorrow morning. I'm really huhh excited about it.

So from tomorrow I'm a townpeople of Budapest.

After crisis

2008-08-20T10:41:00.006+02:00

As I survived that nervous day when it turned out that I'm not accepted to the dormitory now everything is right. First we appealed and they said that I could go to that dormitory from October. I thought this is a very good opportunity and in September I can live with my brother. But yesterday I've found a well situated flat which is very close to the University and it is not so expensive. In this flat I'd live with students from Corvinus too. So it is very tempting.
It follows that tomorrow I'll go to Budapest (by car) and I have a look at the flat although it is under renovations (painting and such things..). The girl who owns the flat said that there is no furniture, but they've already bought new ones. I think she is fairly rich.
So i am very excited about it. I hope it'll be good.

And my dark side: Shellac

It tells everything about pain. More than the: "Bye/Die" one.

Life is full of unexpected opportunities

2008-08-13T14:20:00.004+02:00

It's very difficult to do nothing. I have already experienced this when I worked at McDonald's. It was hard when you had to pretend that you have a very important work there.
This week I made some friends. they will be my classmates in the university.
By Friday i will know if they accepted my application to the dormitory or not. It would be fun if they did.
Today I established that the best albums of Blink 182 are Dude Ranch and Enema of the States. According to my taste of music I would say Flyswatter, but there are less then 10 songs on this album.
I have some housework now. I put my school-books into boxes and then I bring them up to the attic. I don't make it very fast because I always dip into them. It is interesting what I wrote sometimes. And also foolish. I don't think that there'll be a book or slip of paper which won't make me laugh.

Minutes: Thanks Torrent

2008-07-27T18:13:00.003+02:00

I appriciate when I can use the Internet. I mean now: Torrent. Nowadays it really makes my days easier. for example: It gave me a Sum41 album in 9 minutes.
After 10 minutes I keep on watching tv. With my mother we've just made a 150 minutes Simpson Maraton, which is regular in this family :) I'll watch Futurama now. I think everybody knows that both of them are made by Matt Groening. I think he has the most brilliant brain ever existed in the Universe.

YES

2008-07-26T22:18:00.002+02:00

I'm over a big party and now I can announce that I'm a student of Corvinus University of Budapest.
: )

About the Summer

2008-07-23T21:14:00.003+02:00

This summer is about my friends and confusing the letters of the words. nice. It's a kind of argon or sleng. I enjoy it when I have the feeling that nobody knows what we are talking about. So about. especially they know. I hope they know it wrong.
About:
I was at Lake Balaton and I went to that festival i've already mentioned: EFOTT. That was one of my best holidays Yet. We spent our nights in tents, and before the 'night-party' began we went to the nearby swimming-pool. Bronzer. Although it cost much more money than i planned to spend it worth.

La fonte du spirit

2008-07-23T21:01:00.004+02:00

Demain est le jour quand je recevrai une petite message et la message renfermera si je peux aller au Université ou non. Je pense que j'ai du points qui staisfont la frontiére. Mais, je ne suis pas sure.
Si il y a quelquen qui peut m'aider: Je voudrais un clavier de francais. Est-ce que je peux télécharger sur L'Internet?

Insane

2008-07-14T07:52:00.003+02:00

Dreams are so strange. You know when you are running, running and running to get on the train (maybe this is the kind of thing you can't make stereotypes, so--->) I'm running to get on the train but my legs are out of control and i just can't move. The train goes away and i'm left in the middle of the world, in the middle of nothing. And it also happens that i dream about people. I am the one who have to say something very important to another people but when i want to nudge his shoulder my arms are too slow and he leaves before I raise my arms. Strange.
I usually dream the same when it is important to get up early.
I had to get up early today because I have a 3000 HUF work. I have to place the "cash vouchers" and then write the invoices.
I want to go to EFOTT fesztivál. I have already have the tickets but i need pocket money.
This summer I have been at Lake Balaton with my friends. We spent 5 days there. It was good fun. Now comes the festival, and after that I will have a job in the Tax Office. I hope the same work as I do at home.

I'm still alive!

2008-07-01T21:42:00.003+02:00

I've passed my final exam with flying colors (5 for all) but I know that it could be better. I think (now) that I have relatively big chance to go to a university. But I have lot of plans if i can't go to university.

La pressure (?)

2008-06-16T19:27:00.003+02:00

J'étais au lycée ce matin et je suis rencontrée avec ma professeur de francais. Elle est la plus chére at la plus sage femme que je connais. Nous avons bavardé des sujets de bac. C'était un peu de déception pour moi, parce que je sais que je doit apprendre plus. Mais elle n'a pas oublié de me mémoire.
Totalmant, j'ai fait la natation. Je me suis réveillé á 6 heures.
Uhhh. Trois jours ... trois jours pour apprendre tous.

Yesterday was strange

2008-06-12T09:38:00.002+02:00

Yesterday I was in a dilemma, because I was invited to St by my football fan friends. we planned to watch the portuguese against the czeshoslovakaians. I had two reason to not to go. The first one is that I have not gone swimming for two days. And yesterday my neighbour came home so i had a partner. And the second reason is that all of my friends are fans of the portuguese, and i hate them.
So, I think it was a good decision. I went swimming about 5 o'clock and then we had to come home relatively early because of the rain. During swimming It turned out that my neighbour have a symphaty for the czeshoslovakians rather than portuguese. So we discussed that we watch the TV together. It was fun. Especially his father.
At the and of the game we were a bit drunk (3 beers for two).

Plus on le sait, et moins on dort

2008-06-11T11:46:00.003+02:00

J'écoute Unswabbed maintenant. Ils ont beaucoup de chanson qui est tres bonne. Par example Jusqu'á l'aube et Un monde parfait.
Bref, je doit apprener pour mes examens. Le plus difficile est le francais.
Mais je n'apprends pas beaucoup á cause d' Europen League. Je veux les espagnoles de gagner.

having some para

2008-06-06T13:37:00.002+02:00

Puff. i will have my Math exam on Monday. But we'll have party at night. as usual.
Maybe a i'll get home before midnight. maybe just in the morning.
I'm also planning my Holiday programme these days. It includes Italy, Turkey, Hungary (surprise,surprise...) . so with and without friends i nearly filled my calendar.
I go swimming every morning. It really exhauste me. And my shoulders are more and more ... Never mind. I'm planning to wash my hair. I didn't wash it since Tueasday. Perhaps it will happen just before the exam. ..
Exam??? wwááááh. para-norm-ALL.

SUCKCESS

2008-06-02T14:15:00.004+02:00

Friday night i was in a pub called Nevada with some of my friends. And then Saturday was the day of my biggest parties ever! At the weekend there was a festival in Budapest. It was an "opening-summer" music festival with alternative and rock bands like: Kaukázus, Sajnos Batár and Kiscsillag. i tought that it is just a "small" festival but there was a french band: En Vrac, and a polish one: Geronimo (it is the name of the band). It was fun. In the night we went to another concert. And we got home about 5 o'clock in the morning. I want more days like this!

Kettlebell syndrome

2008-05-29T20:55:00.003+02:00

I'm shocked. The Kettlebell really confuses something in my head. Sometimes strange things happen and i can't live my usual life as i did before these actions.
For example when i was about 9 years old i looked up in a dictionary what the word conservative means, when I realised that rivers come from somewhere and when I started profiting from small swindles and lies. The last cut-off point in my life was the disappointment caused by the The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. And now this kettlebell thing...
I hope that someday I'll find the answer to my questions, but when i'll first hear them, they'll confuse me... I'm sure.

Je s'aime

2008-05-29T17:00:00.000+02:00

J'étais au lycée aujourd'hui. Ma professeur de francais a annoncé que mon bac de francais est tres bien. J'ai 84% par l'examen écrit. Avec l'examen orale ce pourra etre 86 ou 88%.
Dans l'apres-midi, nous avons bavardé et nous avons joué billard. tres interessante, n'est ce pas?
Maintenant je vais regarder un film, apres je vais lire.
Un person n'est que absent... mais je n'ai déja lui connu pas.

Waiting for tomorrow

2008-05-27T18:49:00.000+02:00

I think I'm over that distressed period...
There is an Offspirng song called: Dammit i changed again. Now, i can see clear, and i'm free.
My life is going to change tomorrow. I gave up smoking last week (not so long ago), and i found a partner to do sports with. my father was not the best one, and i have tried "some" people, but now i found a mec who is a sportsmen and with who i can chating and joking. So tomorrow i'll get up at 5h30.
If i mentioned Offspring, it causes me difficulties. because i hasitate between two festivals: the Volt, and Hegyalja. I can't make my mind. Which one would be better for me? Both have fantastic programmes (the Volt's includes Offspring).
i'll decide in a week.
I've done my work. I earned 3 thousand HUF. It was an easy job. ohh. jobs. I've written instances, and enclosures to this year's bookkeepings. I only had to know how to use M.Word and Excel. And I know.
In the summer, i'll have two big programmes. The first one is: go to Volt or Hegyalja Festival, the other one is a family trip to Turkey.

By Tomorrow, I start my entertaining new life.
I wish that in the future i'll ignore depressive weeks like the last one.
happy, happy Holiday to everyone!
(fact: seven days without income-calls. But today I realised what i can get from my friends)

Óóó, Ember!

2008-05-26T22:43:00.000+02:00

Szomorú estére alkonyodtunk. Szombaton hagytam el utoljára a házat. Csütörtök óta 1 kimenő hívás. Semennyi bejövő. 2 sms. Szomorú. Kissé jelentéktelen vagyok. Bocsánatot kérek. De amúgy: én ezt így nembírom tovább.

Ущерб!

2008-05-26T10:44:00.000+02:00

Saturday night i wanted to watch a Woody Allen film which started at 11 o'clock. I missed it cause i've already fallen into sleep. Last night there was a film which started ten minutes before midnight. I very proud (not prude) of me that i managed to kept myself awake, and i watched it. It was about how to find rich men, and how to profit. But during the girl pulled the buffoon's legs, she has fallen in love with a poor one. It was really instructive.
the problem is that good films are in late evening and i have to learn how to rest before them. Maybe i will sleep sometimes in the afternoon.
I want to go to a concert on Saturday. Perhaps I will ask some of my friends to come with me. Perhaps not. That "Last week" still hurts. And as i see this one will be the same.
btw this is my last week at home with myself. During the summer we're going to have a lot of guests and friends, and my parents won't go to work... So i "say goodbye" to this unbearable solitude.

After the Death of Me

2008-05-25T22:50:00.000+02:00

i like these days. things go well with my father. We went cycling in the week-end and we talk to each other. This is nice. but if just look at the other side... It was one of my most loneliest week in this year. Maybe that's the reason why I have read two books during 5 days. It's not usual.
if you have already heard about the English alternative band called Bloc Party, and if you have heard their song: I Still Remember (or Hunting for witches)... Then you have the possibility to imagine what i feel now...

Some words about my "bac de francais": It was more difficult than i expected. I think i didn't have enough straight tip, but I had some "nearly straight one". We had to write two letters. I've written a whole letter about "18 bottle of wine". It wasn't appropriate. My teacher suggested that it was a big fault.
So... hmm. not so... rather S.O.S. ---> It means. Somebody Oughtto Saveme!!!

En aimant...

2008-05-19T17:28:00.000+02:00

Aujourd' hui j'ai étudié la grammaire francais en écoutant la musique (par example Kaukázus, Foo Fighters). J'ai realisé que il y a le gérondif, le subjonctif et les conditionnels qui sont trés intéressants et utiles. J'ai aussi étudié moins sorte d'utilisation d'infinitif. Le résultat est plus mauvais que les réclames entre des episodes de South Park.
Si tout va bien, je recevrai une bonne note. Demain est le jour le plus problématique (bac de francais).

Everything collepses

2008-05-17T15:23:00.000+02:00

I told my mum last night before the party that I'll get home around ten or eleven o'clock in the evening and I came home half past six in the morning. She was really upset and told me that she won't give pocket money again. I know that i was in an elegant eight hours late but that so sirious. I won't have money. Dommage!
I don't know if it is worth all-in-all, but it was a nice party.
Now I sould learn french but as I haven't sleep this night I'm just like a zomby and do nothing.
Tomorrow I WILL learn.

Yuppí

2008-05-16T12:12:00.000+02:00

I managed to correct that problem. Maybe i did the roght thing. :)
Today we'll have a party. We're going to meet each other at 6 o'clock and I hope that we'll go the pub called Nevada. This is muck bigger and interesting than the ususal Svejk.
I have to learn a lot this afternoon. French and Math. and week-end is going to be about how much I can learn.
Btw, This is a special day, because if i'm right today my mother effect an insurance for me. it's not the life insurance, cause I've already have that, but something in connection with prperty. She knows...

Aprés "LE"

2008-05-15T17:03:00.000+02:00

J'ai fait autour de 15 km ce jour, c'était trés méchant. Il y avait trois problémes: je, il et nous. Et deux solutions. Tu n'es pas faux si tu penses que je choisi la pire. Je ne doit pas permettre pour les influences des autres. Je doit apprendre que il n'y a rien que/qui est plus important que ......

I appriciate this blog

2008-05-14T22:29:00.000+02:00

There are not many posts in this blog so this evening I've read them, and realised that I like forgetting things. For example I've totally forgotten someone with who I was in love in january and I also forgotten my agony of the New Year's Eve.
On the other hand it's very positive 'cause I can do it again if necessary... the problem is: I don't want.

I just can't deal with them...

2008-05-14T21:52:00.000+02:00

Maintenant je voudrais apprendre pour mes bacs mais c'est un excercise le plus difficile que je peut imaginer.
J'ai déja fait des bacs écrits.
Demain je voudrais aller au tour de velo avec mes copains. J'hesite parce que "mes copains" sont deux mecs tres problématique pour moi. Je ne sais pas si je doit faire ce tour. D'autre part mon bac de francais sera le semain aprés. Je suis tres triste. Apres six ans je ne parle que la langue de base et je ne sais jamais la grammaire. Hmm. C'est la vie.
Est-ce que c'est possible de recommencer ma vie?

2008-03-09T16:29:00.000+01:00

Yiiiiiii. Last night (this morning) I was at a party and... and.. and... WOWWW :)
I've gone crazy.

Nice

2008-01-20T21:07:00.000+01:00

It was a nice day. it was nice to hear from him that " Nice to see you". When he said it didn't mean that "it IS nice to see me". What he said meant that he waited for that meeting, and it was nice to his heart...
Well. If i right remember there were some days when I tought that "it" can work between us. I changed my mind.
The truth is: my heart suggest something different. Suggest someone different, who is maybe unreachable but thats all.
On the other hand it was pleased to me to hear that he likes me.
And it's my dicision to chase the "old" love. ohhpsz It's not accurate. it wasn't love when we were together. Now it is. And I realised what I did in the wrong way...
The reality is: I won't have chance to do it well. he's out. :'(

BINGooooo

2008-01-19T16:56:00.000+01:00

YES YES.......!!!!!!!
It's the post for just Words....
and the words are:
LOVE, YES, Hasitate, choose, Change, LAst, Nice, Love, Happy, Work, Love

:)

Sorry.... I'm so confused.... :) Sg really shocked me :) pfff. (love) :)

2008-01-18T21:14:00.000+01:00

"I'm open, you're closed"
I hate myself!!! And want to die because of my silly things. dammit. Why is it?
I've fallen in love with someone who don't care about me. I'm sure. Watching these stupid web-sites and realising that he has his own life. And I' m no more in it.
I don't know what to do. What to do with this feeling, which I think will never end....
Just wipe the tears...
Poor me. that was what I was waiting for... And now. That makes my life comlicated

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

When I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here I've lost my place I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

Steven :D

2008-01-06T18:03:00.000+01:00

I'm wondering if there is love in the Universe. Maybe the answer is YES. (maybe :NO but this is not that post.)
The more I tried to find it, the longer I became far from it.
Now... It was different.

Mon Dieu!

2008-01-02T18:39:00.000+01:00

I'm really tired of going to school. After this relaxing break I have to do the usual "life" and fight with those nerveus... It's a habit with me to be depressed after good things. But that's life: ups-and-downs, and It's time for me to learn how to deal.
As I wrote I had no inspiration to go a New Year's Eve pary. And... I did it. So I ignored every circumstances and i did what I tought the best for me. The result is: I stayed home...

Solving those problems

2007-12-30T15:29:00.000+01:00

I have to profess that I have a really bad feeling about myself because of ingoring this blog so long. I just do some pitiable effort to make my english better and one of my classmate had an advise. He recommended me to write a blog in english. And i tought it is just about that. I have not realise how much I enjoy it (even i make a lot of mistakes)
I have a hungarian blog at www.sors.blogol.hu
So. tomorrow will be the pary of the parties. Or not? The problem is in my head. because i think the Party of The New Years Eve is just for thoso who worked all year and at this night they have a last chance to have a party. But I'm not one of them. The 2007 year was just about entertainment for me. I don't need a last chance. I used the whole year to do what I want.
Even so... I'll go to the party. But just as usual.

Only

2007-12-27T23:30:00.001+01:00

"Only" a year passed since I started writing this blog. I wasn't so hardworking in it I know... It's quiet interesting to re-read these posts. I think I have not changed so much. Maybe in this year, the New Year's Eve won't be at my 'garden'. I hope :) Or... I don't really know what i want

sad days

2007-05-03T18:38:00.000+02:00

hmm. I have not done anything in the last two week. There is still nobody in my life to trust in and love. why?
Last week my parents gone out and I stayed home with my brother to drink. as we talked about important and more important things he said that he thinks that the reason why I have no lover is I don't want it from my heart. I swear I do. I got everything except this. Friends, Success... what would ever wish for in my teen-age. Except this.

"If you live through this with me I swear that I will die for you"

summer for me

2007-04-12T20:09:00.000+02:00

There is no cloud on the sky, the sun shines. I have no motivation to stay inside the house and learn. I feel the energy of summer. And the freedom. I've learnt all the year, I have excellent grades and now it's enough. Fortunately we haven't got examinations at the end of the school term. Now I focus on driving. And sleeping. so bye.

New world!

2007-04-04T18:16:00.000+02:00

Yupiiiiiiiii!!! I've passed my examination with flying colours! I'm really proud of it. Now I can start driving which I really like.
On the other hand I've been at beauty-parlor, and at the hair stylist. Just as general. nothing special happened.
Friday! Things go well with my friends so FRIDAY!!!!!! Friday 'll be great!

Not getting well

2007-04-03T16:20:00.000+02:00

When I went out at the break to smoke, my ex-boyfriend dropped his searching gaze on me. Maybe he... Too complicated...
We had a typically funny biology lesson today. Nevertheless I hate this subject, these lessons are one of the most ridiculous.
I have something to learn this afternoon. Tomorrow I'll have an examination about which I'm very nervous. It's part of getting my driving licence.
Last week I said to my best girlfriend that she is a faggot. She didn't like it. We haven't spoke to each other since. But I think I was right, and I don't care anymore about her emotional shootings. On that score I won't go to the party on Friday. C'est la vie.
I start learning.

To the end of the school term

2007-04-02T21:41:00.000+02:00

I'm looking forward to that day, when I wake up at the morning hearing the spokesman on the radio saying: Good Morning everybody! It's 16st June! Cuz I think that will be the last day of school. But time doesn't pass as rapid as I want.
I still have a lot work to do even this week is partytime. On Friday we'll start the night at four o'clock =) After destroy our intelligence and the ambient society I 'll come home.
At the last weekend we had an interesting work. a real job. we worked through 3 days and we'll get 8000HUF which is not enough but that will be my first salary ever. The work was easy and exciting. We counted the passengers of the buses. It was a survey of the local Bus Company. It was funny when people mistook us for controllers. We all enjoyed it.
I decided to write regulary. hope i'll manage to keep

2007

2007-01-02T15:50:00.000+01:00

My headache is still so strong. New Year's Eve was a good party, but not for my examination which will be tomorrow. The guests were well-behaved, the house is in a good condition. They loved the meal I cooked by myself. And the drink we'd bought. We had a Hubertus, Royal, Metaxa, Garrone, Törley for clinking glasses and as much as beer you can imagine.

terrible work

2006-12-30T16:50:00.000+01:00

It was hard. Too hard for me to bear .
I got up in a two hours late, so I began making the lunch. My mother offered me her help and she made the pancake. M y work was the soup. I had quite a good spirit to do it during my father was talking about the next days night. He caught my eyes not do those things which I have already knew I should workaround. While he was talking I made the lunch, which managed beyond my expectations.
I have cleaned the house. I don't know why. I see no possibility to avoid the cleaning Monday's morning. My parents' re going to leave in 20 hours, and come back on Monday. I hope in the evening.
Tomorrow is time for the party. Time for changes.
According to my horoscope I'm going to fall in love in March. I look forward to live through it...

the day coming

2006-12-29T19:58:00.000+01:00

New Years Eve coming. My friends' re going to come for a "short" party. Maybe it won't be short. I nearly fall into sleep, only my toughs keep me here, in this world. Like always.

Tomorrow I must finish my History work, 'cause this week the Sunday is very problematic. Monday too. I hope we won't totally destroy this house. If it' s happen I'll be in a big trouble. I need hmm, let's see, 6 basins to avoid the destruction, and 4 another for the pukes. Or I just close the door and keep out my friends. New Years Eve with my cat. Ohhh. Very similar to B.J. So I let them come in...
Travis arrive on Sunday. I think he wants something. I love him, but I can't secede from my fantasy. It' s perfect for me. So why should I care about the real life. Hmm. I think it over...