sad days

hmm. I have not done anything in the last two week. There is still nobody in my life to trust in and love. why?
Last week my parents gone out and I stayed home with my brother to drink. as we talked about important and more important things he said that he thinks that the reason why I have no lover is I don't want it from my heart. I swear I do. I got everything except this. Friends, Success... what would ever wish for in my teen-age. Except this.

"If you live through this with me I swear that I will die for you"