Kettlebell syndrome

I'm shocked. The Kettlebell really confuses something in my head. Sometimes strange things happen and i can't live my usual life as i did before these actions.
For example when i was about 9 years old i looked up in a dictionary what the word conservative means, when I realised that rivers come from somewhere and when I started profiting from small swindles and lies. The last cut-off point in my life was the disappointment caused by the The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. And now this kettlebell thing...
I hope that someday I'll find the answer to my questions, but when i'll first hear them, they'll confuse me... I'm sure.

Óóó, Ember!

Szomorú estére alkonyodtunk. Szombaton hagytam el utoljára a házat. Csütörtök óta 1 kimenő hívás. Semennyi bejövő. 2 sms. Szomorú. Kissé jelentéktelen vagyok. Bocsánatot kérek. De amúgy: én ezt így nembírom tovább.

Aprés "LE"

J'ai fait autour de 15 km ce jour, c'était trés méchant. Il y avait trois problémes: je, il et nous. Et deux solutions. Tu n'es pas faux si tu penses que je choisi la pire. Je ne doit pas permettre pour les influences des autres. Je doit apprendre que il n'y a rien que/qui est plus important que ......

I just can't deal with them...

Maintenant je voudrais apprendre pour mes bacs mais c'est un excercise le plus difficile que je peut imaginer.
J'ai déja fait des bacs écrits.
Demain je voudrais aller au tour de velo avec mes copains. J'hesite parce que "mes copains" sont deux mecs tres problématique pour moi. Je ne sais pas si je doit faire ce tour. D'autre part mon bac de francais sera le semain aprés. Je suis tres triste. Apres six ans je ne parle que la langue de base et je ne sais jamais la grammaire. Hmm. C'est la vie.
Est-ce que c'est possible de recommencer ma vie?

"I'm open, you're closed"
I hate myself!!! And want to die because of my silly things. dammit. Why is it?
I've fallen in love with someone who don't care about me. I'm sure. Watching these stupid web-sites and realising that he has his own life. And I' m no more in it.
I don't know what to do. What to do with this feeling, which I think will never end....
Just wipe the tears...
Poor me. that was what I was waiting for... And now. That makes my life comlicated

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

When I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here I've lost my place I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide